[ The silence says more than enough, and John starts to wonder if he should just say he was joking, that this was just another prank. But that would be the end of that; he wouldn't be able to take something like that back.

That and... that just seems mean.

He still flinches when Dave finally speaks, though, and this sucks. He hates this. He wanted this to feel good and it doesn't. ]

I don't know. Probably since we were younger, but I only really put it together a few months ago. I just...

[ The words are on the tip of his tongue, threatening to spill his guts and all his feelings along with them. But he knows what Dave is thinking. He knows very, very well. ]

If you want to move out now, I'd understand. You have to tell Emmy, though. I'm not breaking her heart like that.